11th day Hey!

And there you have it. 2 weeks since I dug down and got serious. And I have released 10 pounds of dead weight. GONE. Although I was kinda hoping for a bigger loss this week. I was super good for my calories. Not so much on my walking so it really wasn't practical to hope for a good loss. A girl can dream. But a loss is still amazing for 2 weeks in a row. I should of measured this morning but I was in a hurry to get to work. I will measure my arms, legs and stomach tomorrow.

I did walk tonight. I walked last night and I will walk again tomorrow. I love it. And I love how I am not starving. I even had a cookie today at lunch. :)

Day 10 on ISA

Yes, I have made it to the 10th day and almost 2 weeks of being back on track. I brought my clothes to walk after work tonight. My lovely DH went to get some OFF for my bite free bug free walk. Looking forward to that.

Took the nasty supreme this morning. I find myself adding more and more water to it. Blah. It also seems like the amount in the bottle never goes down. Why is that? Because I am working tomorrow my cleanse days will have to wait till next weekend. I am not too sad about that. It was hard and I am so glad that I did as best as I could on it. I think that spacing them apart is going to be a good idea for me.

I took the time to really plan my lunch today. I want Noodles. Well I really want their new Margherita Flatbread which is only 330 calories. And then I wanted a salad so I did a small Med salad for 160 calories. Well within my max range for 600 calorie lunch. With my walk tonight it should be ok. I am actually kinda excited about eating out and eating 1/2 way decent. I will tell you how it is. And before I forget I need to update MFP.

The lunch was good. The flatbread was a bit too thick with tomatoes and basil but still really good. They forgot the chicken on my salad but that is ok. I am still leaving the calories as is. I am glad that I did order that for lunch cause the company bought pizza and that would of been a disaster. So I am feeling very comfortable with my life changes and how aware I am of things.

Making my shake before my walk tonight, taking some cold water with me and I should be good to go.

Late night-lovely night for a walk! I did 15 min before I had to turn around and go home. 1 to pee and the other was to get a shall for my oldest. She needed it for over her dress at the last dance of the year. Then I went to the park to hop on that part of the trail to finish my walk. I did a whole total of 3.8 miles in 73 min. I am bringing my clothes again tomorrow so I can walk right after work. I am really excited to see what my WI in the morning will bring after 2 weeks back on track.  I am kinda hungry and don't want to be starving so I think I will find a small snack before I go to bed.

9 day run

Really, 9 days and I am still actually enjoying this? The structure, I enjoy that a lot. I feel like it motivates me to actually want to make the most of my investment. I want to work out cause that will help with the ISA program. I want to track and plan what I eat and make sure it is healthy cause that will help with the ISA program. I am really enjoying the energy and motivation I have to make this work. It's amazing what getting your money's worth will change the way you do things.

Same old today and yesterday as far as food goes. Although I didn't walk last night I did meet my GF for lunch today and we did a 25 min walk today. It was only 160some calories burned but I was motivated enough to do it which is HUGE for me. I think if there is calm at home when I get off, I will tackle a good 45 on there tonight. Funny thing is that now since I have been walking outside, I am soooooooo bored on my treadmill. Back to today's walk, I really hope her and I can make lunch/walk a weekly thing.

I am not bored with the shakes yet. Which is nice. Normally when I am home I can take the time to add extracts or fruit. This week hasn't been too bad without that. But since I am not walking as much as I was before, I have noticed the scale isn't really moving fast either. But I have to remind myself, I may be losing inches and not knowing it.

And I didn't walk tonight. Just didn't feel it when my little one wanted to read before bedtime. There are a few more things important. Like reading Goodnight Moon.

8th day and going strong!

Since I worked late last night, and tonight and tomorrow night-I don't have to come in till 11. Which gives me time to have my shake-vanilla with raspberry extract, in the morning, pack my lunch and if I had been thinking way ahead, I would of done a good workout. Maybe tomorrow morning I will be that ambitious. But for now, I am just happy with myself that I took the time to plan ahead for the day. And that I am done 5 total from last week when I started ISA. Almost 6 cause the scale kept going back and forth. I am going to count it as 5 and see what my Sat morning WI brings. I swear I can see a change in my stomach and how I don't look bloated and 7 months pregnant I look anymore.

By the time I got off work tonight and home, my little one was all wound up. I spent time cooling her down before bed and now it's too late for me to get a walk in. I am actually going in early than I thought tomorrow so no walking then. Hopefully tomorrow night and for sure I will walk after work on Friday.

I m exhausted from today though. As soon as Catfish is over I am going to bed.

7th Day-Hooray!

This whole week is going to be hard. It's not my normal schedule for work so I am really going to have to think about things and plan/pack ahead as much as I can.

Today I had my morning shake at home, packed a lunch and then packed my things to make my dinner shake. I am working till 8. I am going to have to hit the treadmill at home for an hour and the bummer is that I left my FB at home. :(

Late afternoon: And my whole day got tossed to hell when I had a small family situation to take care of. When I got back to work I was STARVING and it was almost 3pm. No lunch and no snacks. I had nothing to eat except for my shake at home. But instead of grabbing some chips from the breakroom I had some veggie straws. Then after I got caught up at work I got my 418 lunch and tried to slowly eat it. And then I felt fine. No more panic, no more starving. Nothing and I was very satisfied. I have my shake mix here at work ready to make and drink as I head home to do some treadmill time. At this time of the day I am not sure if I am going to do a hour or just 45 min. I wish it wasn't so rainy out and close to sunset when I got home. And I feel it has been a super long day. I haven't binged, or strayed off the plan so maybe 45 will just have to do it.

And 45 min it was. If I had working internet at home this would of been posted faster. :)

6th Day of ISA-10 Days On Track

Wow, I feel good. No headaches, I slept great and I woke up not wanting to eat my arm. Plus I did peek at the scale and the cleanse helped me toss another 2 pounds. Although I really know that I can't mark that down until my Wi day on Saturday. But if those lowly 2 stay gone all this week, that will mean I am down a total of 10. Seriously. How crazy is that.

To celebrate I am enjoying 10oz of the forbidden morning juice with heavenly creamer....ahhhhh. After this I am going to have my shake with fruit. I think DH bought fresh bananas yesterday and a spoon of PB should be good as well. The shakes are 240 calories already and so far I don't see anything wrong with adding fruit to them. We need fruit and I do track the calories. I am thinking about lunch/dinner depends on when we grill, but I plan to fully enjoy the max amount of calories for that meal-600. :)

And a nice long walk outside later. It's already a warm 70 out so I am going to need to go soon-like 9:30ish or go tonight after dinner. The nice part is that the trail is shaded so it is cooler walking. But I think I better wait til I have some calories in me before I take on a hour walk.

I had every intention of posting this before I went to bed last night but I was hot and exhausted from my walk and just wanted to go to bed, after a shower.

So dinner was great, the cod in tin foil packet on the grill worked great, fresh lettuce out of the garden for a salad. The whole dinner, roll included was 608 calories. I need to get my FB off of the MFP cause I think that it is double counting my calories with the MapMyWalk ap. The MMW does connect with MFP and links those calories burned. Or maybe it isn't. I don't know. I need to look at it more closely. Maybe it is taking what I earned and subtracting the FB from the MMW and then coming up with the FB total to add to my day. I actually think it is doing that. However, I can Google all of that later. My walk really burned my dinner and then some. So I think setting my calorie range to 1300 to account for calories taken in and ones burned will still help me stay on track and help me lose.

Cleanse #2

Nothing on the scale for a change. So I maintained yesterday. Not sure if that is normal or just how it goes. Especially if you factor in that I started with toxic coffee, water that wasn't fancy and had 2 whole apples. We will see how today goes. Yes, I am starting with 6oz of coffee again. I have to. There are just some things I am not willing to give up cold turkey, scale back on, sure. Give up-nope. But I didn't really feel weak and I was only cold for a bit at night. No headaches and no stomach pains from starving.

I am however, already thinking about chewing food tomorrow. LOL!

Noonish-chew, chew, chew, wish I had food to chew. Ahhh, it isn't that bad. DH took the girls to eat brunch with his folks and I stayed behind. I just couldn't face that temptation after the hard work yesterday. So much of it was mental and staying focused on my goal. So I decided to stay home. I did laundry and cleaned E's closet.  And took some more CFL, only 2 more to go-3pm and 6pm and then food tomorrow! Whoo Hooo! The desire to cheat is bit is getting stronger. I just have a bit more to go and I have come this far, I can do it.

Early Evening-I just had the last dose of my CFL and there is still some left in the bottle. Now I wonder if I shorted myself but I couldn't, I measured out each 4oz. I went outside and played with the dog, I did laundry, I watched all of the Once episodes I was missing and now I am onto Glee. I am going to have a apple here in a bit just to settle my stomach. Other than that, things are going ok, I think. I may have to measure my waist cause I think I can see a small change there. Or at least take a photo. But I am finding things to keep myself busy and my DH has been doing a great job of being mindful. He even bought me flowers!

I do have to wonder, without food for two days-granted the stuff I am taking is full of nutrients and vitamins, will I gain weight back with solid food now?

Anyhow, I just made some peach green tea. I am going to enjoy that and think about going to bed early. I am so putting fruit in my shake tomorrow morning. :)

Cleanse #1

Having 6oz of coffee is NOT cheating. At least that is how I am looking at it as. The most wonderful thing is that I have lost 8 pounds in a week. Nice. I know it is from walking and the strict calorie range. Regardless it feels nice to actually have a great result from lots of patience and planning. I took the supreme before my coffee this morning and in about 10 min I need to start the 1 of 4 cleanse drinks. Remember, it's a peeing cleanse so nothing explosive about it and I can go about my day as long as I still get in my 8 servings of water.

This is pretty much what I am following except adding a apple in there since I don't have any of the Delights. And no, not my schedule but it seemed to me the only one that really made sense in how to make the day go by and stay on track.

I just downed the 1st 4oz of the cleanse. It wasn't something that made me gag or shudder. I slammed it and then chased with water. But it does have a heavy berry tone with it and it is way better than the supreme. Ick. According to a few schedules online I can have up to 12 of the huge pill like snacks during the day. They are chewable, like big tums but some say they are better if you suck on them, we shall see.

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Mid afternoon and I am still feeling good. I actually one have 1 more dose of the cleanse to take for the day. Dinner is going to kill me cause I bought all of this yummy food to grill and can't have a lick of it. But I haven't had any hunger pains or food cravings yet. I took the girls to the mall, then to McD's for lunch. I had apple slices and water. Apple slices are ok to have, the plan says 1/4 of a apple but the little snack bag at McD's isn't close to a whole apple. I think the bottom line is to not have solids that will take up time digesting or adding fats and calories. Anyhow after that we took a trip to Costco. I love their little grapefruit cups and having greek yogurt portioned out for me. I also splurged and got cod which will break up the chicken that I know is lean and something that I will eat. And I didn't have one single sample of anything. Nothing and there were a lot of good samples to have! I managed to suck on the vanilla snacks and did just fine. I don't think that they are gross and I kinda like them. I think that I have had 5 of them today and from what I understand you can have up to 12. Maybe I will slice up a apple before I go to bed. Tomorrow will be the last day of the cleanse. I am really proud of myself for almost being done with day 1. I am tired and cold. LOL!

I did complete the day but not without another apple and 1 more vanilla snack. We will see what tomorrow holds. I already passed up brunch. No way I am tossing all of today's work away. So much of it was mental. And a lot was physical. I am looking forward to Monday. :)

# 3-is that a streak?

Morning and it has been a crazy one. Damn. Started off slow at home, well I was just too cozy in my bed to move to be honest. Once I was up I took the supreme with water-I admit, I shudder when I drink it. Showered and then made my shake for breakfast. Packed my shoes and workout clothes for my walk after work and then headed out. Walked into a cluster of crap at work and finally remembered to take my accelerator. I will be needing a snack this morning for sure.

Had my grapefruit cup and string cheese for snack. I bought a salad when I was running my errands so I will have that a little later when I start to get hungry. So far I feel pretty great. Sick of drinking water, even when it is flavored. No way I could get down plain water. Just not going to happen for this gal. But I am drinking it.

Late afternoon-finally had my salad. It was sooo good! I topped it off with a pudding pack-100 cal of course. The salad was a chicken chef and I tossed the dressing that came with it. It was from Target and I did scan it to MFP(LOVE) and it came up as 300 calories. I love how MFP and the FitBit are talking to each other. It is making this lifestyle change so much easier. Tonight I am going to try out the MapMyWalk app and see how that goes. I have a shake with fruit planned for after my walk and then I should be good to go for the night. Tomorrow I start 1 of a two day cleanse. I have been reading how it is important it is to have 2 all shake days before a cleanse but not really necessary. We will see how it goes without the 2 shake days. I want to have a few days under my belt before I did the cleanse. Maybe next week that is how I will approach it. We will see how this weekend goes 1st. Tomorrow morning is my 1st WI since starting back on track as well.

The only side effect I am having is the on and off rancid breath and extra gassy. Today(TMI) I was a bit looser then usual. I am only taking 1 of the flush pills at night since I never had a issue before. No headaches at all but I am still having 6oz of coffee every day.

I am really excited to get off of work and get my walk done. It's so nice out today! Maybe it will help take my mind off the cleanse. I am kinda nervous about it.

Amazing walk tonight! Being on that trail makes you think you are in another world. And the MapMyWalk app worked great! I walked 4.4 miles! I want to walk this part every Friday since it's on my way home.

# 2

Morning-I caved last night. I did get hungry late and had a low carp wrap with some ham, cheese, pickle and cream cheese. Kinda glad I did cause I didn't wake up hungry this morning. Downed my supreme and headed out the door. Another LC planned for lunch today, I need to get better about planning and packing that lunch the night before. And a ice cold shake was much better tasting this morning. :)

Lunch-I didn't want to eat my frozen LC so I went and got a salad. Had that with 2 hard boiled egg whites and a avocado. Yogurt for desert and all for 402 calories. I am slacking on my water today. I think that I am just so burnt out from it the past few days. Tonight is a no walking night cause my oldest has her choir concert. I am going to try to stay on plan as best as I can without the work out.

I think that I am going to bring my walking clothes so that tomorrow I can just change, leave work, park my car by the trail and start my walk. That is my plan for now. I don't have any cravings right now and I am sure that prepping before the ISA came was a huge help in that. I skipped my morning snack cause I just wasn't hungry but I have some grapefruit in the fridge if I get that way before I leave work.

9 days till measure day.

And home. I did have a my grapefruit as a snack before I went home. I didn't want to be hungry like I was last night. I had a bit of cheese while I was making my youngest her sandwich. Maybe a ounce. Then my shake which gets this weird like gel look when I make it in my Ninja. Maybe it's the fast blades or the frozen fruit. Regardless it still tastes good.

I better get dishes done before I go. Too bad I can't loose weight doing that.

Day 1 of ISA

Morning-Today is the day. Let's talk about last night 1st. I went to the pizza party. Lots of pizza and amazing homemade deserts. OH WOW. I held off having pizza for as long as I could but I gave in. One huge slice of pepperoni. I did soak as much of the grease off as I could(who the hell is this woman). Then a desert or two or 4. I can't remember, which is bad(oh there she is). So very bad. And then the kids were cranky and I was mad at myself so I took them home, changed my clothes and hit the trail. I had a nice 3.25 mile walk again and my shins feel a bit better this morning. I need to hit the trail about 30 min earlier than I did last night but it was still very much worth going out and getting it done. I took all my measurements after my shower and wrote those down. No big reveal till after the 11 days.

I can tell you that according to my scale, I am down 5 pounds from when I 1st started all of this back up without the ISA. Which is a pound per day so far. However I know as well as you know, it's mostly water weight. 200, 195...

And onto the start. I had the shot of supreme this morning while I was getting ready for work, I think that is what I took and not the cleanse...I was kinda in a sleepy fog at the time. I added it in 8oz of water to help chase it down. It isn't stomach turning. Weird in color and has a bitter apple taste. But I am not used to eating anything till mid-morning so now my stomach is growling. Also, I think I need a new shaker. I hear the company is so awesome at switching products and flavors that I think getting one that doesn't leak shouldn't be a issue. I did make a cup of coffee-6oz and will make my shake around 8. Snack at 10 and lunch around noon. The nice thing is that MFP already has my things logged since I did it a head of time. I just have to make sure I track the exact snacks and anything extra I eat for lunch. And that I stay on schedule. And lots of water but I am counting the 8 I had already and the 8 that will make my shake.

8am-1st accelerator is down, shake is down. Shake taste is good. Not super sweet and over vanilla flavor. Almost has a hit of nutmeg or cinnamon in it. It does need to be colder so I may need to bring ice cubes from home or make sure the bottle of water I grabbed is super cold. Or get a cube tray from the $1 store and just make cubes here to help shake it up and break it up. Oh and another odd side effect is very bad breath. From what I understand it is caused by the release of toxins. Good thing I am a avid gum chewer.

10am-It was actually a bit after 10 that I looked at the clock and thought oh, I need to have my snack. So I had 5.5oz of pineapple. I am taking my time eating it, I wasn't really hungry but knew from reading that snacks are very important to keeping your body working and not feeling starved. My gosh I have been peeing a lot!

Lunch-warmed up my lunch, a Lean Cuisine. Which is lean and in the calorie range, still loaded with "toxins". I am kinda making fun of that word I know, but seriously, we breathe toxins all day long. And for what I paid for the program, a few in my food may just have to be ok. Also, I put flavor packets in my water, another no no. But I feel this program is going to be doing more than just ridding my body of toxins. I want it to help me lose weight and inches of course but to also teach me, once again, how to measure, track and pay attention to everything I eat and the activity I do. Anyhow I had that and raspberries, yogurt and veggie straws. I am still well within my range of calories for the day without working out, which I plan on still doing. I also took my accelerator as directed. So far so good.

Evening-Well it was a pretty good day with the program. I did have a small freak out when I went to check my calories on MFP and saw there was only 100 left...silly me had already logged my dinner shake and forgot. Opps.  I never did have my afternoon snack. I just wasn't hungry enough for it. I made my chocolate shake-again ok flavor, with 1/2 cup frozen strawberries and bananas. That was pretty decent. Then I went for my walk. I tried to get the MapMyWalk ap to work on my phone and it's being a pain in the ass. I am going to use that on my walk Friday.

Nothing much for the rest of the night. Going to sip on my water and take the flush pill before I go to bed. Hopefully I sleep good.

Calm night...

Morning-Sitting here at work. Sipping on my coffee for the day. Already wondering when I will be able to take my nice walk when I get home from work. My shins are still sore, weird. My 30 day ISA comes today! Then things will be less boring. I already figure that I am going to have to get to bed before 10 and get up around 5:30. I was watching people's stories last night on YouTube, real people, people who were not already stick thin. Curvy people like me. And seeing them go through their schedule of the day. Sounds like the best way to start is Shake for breakfast, 100ish snack-clean, 400-600 lunch-a clean lunch. So lots of veggies and lean proteins. Which means I am going to have to actually get up to make my lunch or at least plan it out the night before. Snack again and then a shake for dinner. Now I already plan on adding frozen fruit to my nightly shake for a few reasons. One, I already have the frozen fruit and two, I hate waking up starving. They-ISA members, talk a lot about toxins and how this is helping remove them so your body can function and expel the fat easier. So no fake flavors, sugar, nitrates....anything artificial is a no no. I was also looking at the cleansing part of the program. I will be cleansing Saturday and Sunday. It is not a poo cleanse. Trust me, it was the 1st thing I asked before I signed into this. However you will pee like cra cra all day long. And it's a two day cleanse so Saturday and Sunday a very strict program with a shake starting up Monday morning. I have read that along with the special snacks they give you for the cleanse days, you can drink herbal tea with no caffeine and have some fresh apple. And water. Lots of water. Water till your eyeballs float right out of your head.

I just noticed that my oatmeal choice is 250 calories. It better be damn good.(it was)


Home-wow. I was warned that getting the box of stuff was a bit overwhelming and they were right. Right away I found the guide of what to take when. I took a sharpie and labeled everything. I got 4 shake canisters and 2 cleanse bottles. I left 2 canisters and 1 bottle in the box along with the business paperwork. I don't want to make money off of someone. I want to better myself and I need to focus on that 1st.

So I labeled the vanilla for breakfast and the chocolate for dinner. Wrote the times of the accelerator on the cap and took out a snack baggie so I can remember to bring the afternoon with me. I was reading that if you take it later in the day-like after 2ish, it can keep you up at night and I don't want that. There is also a flush pill you take before bed and reading the back it sounds like it helps regulate your digestive system-makes you go on a normal schedule I guess. The bottle of cleanse and the morning shot I put in the fridge cause it says it is best cold and to keep it in the fridge after opening. The snacks I put a note on there that they are for cleanse days only. So my review on those will be Saturday and Sunday. There was 4 packets of some orange energy powder. I have read that some stick it in their morning shake-1/2 the packet and drink the other 1/2 during the day some time.  And you can have 1 to 2 of them on your cleanse days. Right now I think I am going to play those right by the book and not worry about them so they are with the other extras. There was also a sample of Chai tea, 2 meal bars and 1 fiber bars. That was kinda nice. Oh and a shaker bottle which leaks a bit. I am not sure if I will use it or not. Maybe test drive it tomorrow and see what happens. I plan on making my shake per directions but shaking it up with ice cubes to help break the powder up. I guess you have to drink it within 10 min of you mixing it up for it to be the most effective.

And now I am off to a pizza party. Good gosh what bad timing that is!

The guide is really easy to understand and follow. I took the marker and crossed off the extras they suggest which do not come in the kit. I didn't want to be confused. Give me the basics and directions and let me adjust.

Here is pretty much the whole kit(not my picture) My Supreme and Cleanse came in bottles and I got two canisters of vanilla and 2 of chocolate for the shakes.

3 day streak....

Morning-Pretty good day yesterday. I ate very reasonable, although I was more hungry than I thought after my lunch smoothie. Now remember, none of my ISA items have come yet so I am just making better choices at home. And for day 2 using MFP I really did a great job, in my opinion, keeping track of what I ate and even the amounts. I was feeling pretty good and energetic that I decided to take a walk along the bike trail. I set my iPod timer for 30 min, figured I would go that far and then a 30 min back for a good hour walk. I ended up really enjoying myself and walking a little over a hour. Later I found some program that maps your walk so you can figure the distance. I walked 3.25 miles. Impressive. I would love to make this my thing. Weather depending of course. But it was so relaxing and nice just to be outside and walking at my own pace without having to think about anything.

This morning I also decided to cut back to one cup of coffee. It was 20oz size and I drank almost all of it. However, I tossed it at 9 and started on my water. Baby steps. And lots of bathroom trips. LOTS of bathroom trips.


Afternoon-I find that if I write here and there during work, it's super easy to copy and past into my blog when I get home and then finish the rest of it. Which is why some days you will see morning and afternoon posts.

Because my shins were still sore when I got home from work and that it rained and is only 50 out, I didn't walk outside. I did get 35 min of walking in on my treadmill. I made a salad after getting E her dinner and then sat down and logged it on MFP. 3 days in a row I have logged. I think that I have just enough calories for a small treat. Thinking hot chocolate on this grey day would be perfect. And that is where I am at now. Thinking & playing a numbers game. I wanted to stay in the 1400 to 1200 range for the day. 1400 based on a good workout day. My Fitbit told MFP that I earned 510 extra calories for the day. I am at 1441 for the day. Is a 100 calorie hot chocolate going to put another pound on me..no. But the numbers will be so OVER what I planned. See, head games, over thinking, too much time on my hands and all of that crap.


I am having the hot chocolate. 3 day streak. I can afford a hot chocolate after the kids are in bed.


I also decided to let C know what I did. Well a few details. I told him after my 30 days were up I would let him know the cost. I also told him that no matter how much he thinks this is not going to work, he needs to support and encourage me regardless of his hesitations.

 Tomorrow my kit should be here. I am kinda excited, kinda nervous. I still have to take my measurements. I have decided to measure my upper arms, waist and thighs. I think those 3 areas are the most noticeable and the easiest to track. I did take my before pictures on Saturday. From what I read you measure and take pictures on the 11th day and again on the 30th-last day. I am trying to soak up as much as I can before I start.

Into The Groove

Yesterday I went into food awareness mode. I figured out a day with the ISA and snacks and then a bit more calories for working out. ISA figures that to lose the inches and pounds, you need a min of 1200 calories a day. However, when you work out you burn calories and generally if you are not taking in more to compensate you go into starvation mode. So I added about 200 more calories to MFP set up to balance out the days I want to work out. This is something I kinda knew already but was backed up with the experiences from others that I found on the FB page. I updated MFP and charged my FitBit. I am starting over and using the tools I have now to make little changes before my stuff gets here.

I also did a mock day with the meals and snacks and what I have on hand for snacks to see where I would come out calorie wise. Yesterday with just being aware of what I was eating and when-huge side note, I need to become much better at measuring and weighing my food. But with that said I had a 1615 calorie day. Just a bit over the 1400 I set up but I had a slice of apple pie with cool whip which is what pushed me over. On my mock day I am sitting at 976 calories for the day. The shakes are 240, snacks are suppose to be around 100 and your meal between 400-600. I have the shakes in there for breakfast and lunch. Also a snack between breakfast and one in the afternoon. And then I took a look at what I already have on hand for food and planned my dinner around that. That gives me room to have another 300 in calories if I need them. And those calories may change if I add fruit to the shakes which I can't really do unless I am home. I am not going to haul my blender to work. But maybe I can make a shake with fruit for dinner and eat my meal during lunch at work. We will see what works best. Maybe I am over thinking/planning it all...

I do believe that looking into so far, coffee is a no no cause of all of the toxins. Even the water needs to be bottled and not from the tap because of the chemicals. Lucky for me we have free bottled water at work. Unlucky for me we have a K-cup machine and all of the free coffee I want. I am planning on going from 2 cups to 1 which also will mean I start drinking my water 2 hours earlier.

Again, I am probably over thinking all of this considering my kit isn't even here yet. 

Junk between the curves

You know it's been forever and day since I even thought about updating this blog. Lots of things have come and gone in that time. They are in the past so not worth bringing up at this point.

 I am still married..that comes and goes with the love and passion and all of that. Better or worse, right? And the girls are doing great. One teenager and the other heading to the big Kindergarten this fall. Seems like yesterday I was fat and uncomfortable just waiting for her to be in my arms.

 Now I am fat and uncomfortable waiting for myself to hit rock bottom. I was close this morning when I saw I was 2 pounds away from what I never thought I would see or prayed I wouldn't see. So that is my rock bottom. It's the middle of May. No way am I going to be able to make it though the summer without looking decent in shorts. It's not just curves any more. There is extra junk between them. I love my curves, I am always going to have curves but the junk needs to GTFO. At this point I would be happy with a good 10 and then move on from there. But I also know I am the type that needs instant results/satisfaction. I am selfish that way. I also need to be told what to do and when to do it...yes, a bit 50shadesish. So I went looking for something to give me what I wanted. I was up late one night being nosy on FB and came across one of my daughter's friend's mom. Follow that? She had posted some pictures of before and after and people were commenting about her loss and the inches gone and she got a pair of jeans on she hasn't worn in months. What, wait...30 days and you lost enough to toss a old pair of jeans on? This is a joke, scam, gimmick...what is the catch?

 I spent the next few days thinking it all over, just wondering about it and how she had success. I reached out and sent her a message. Which opened up a lot more questions and thoughts and wondering. Last night I was up till midnight, reading all that I could about this product and company. I wanted more info. I wanted to see what others were saying and how they tailored it to their needs. I knew this morning after seeing the scale I had to do it. I had to invest in my health. I took the cash out of my little savings jar, I earned that money, I could use it as I see fit-like I needed to reassure myself it was ok to do it. I called her on my lunch break and asked a few more questions and had my mind put at ease. Here was a normal person in my town who was honestly telling me what tasted ok, what was too expensive but here was a cheaper product she used. I liked that. I liked that she could be honest and not all pushy on what I HAD to use.

 Now I sit and wait. Well not sit. No reason to not have my body in motion and not be practicing good healthy clean eating till I get my box of goodies. ISA on the way. Should be delivered on Tuesday. Wed am I start. I am going to try my best to keep this off of FB. I really don't want to brag or seem like I am taking the easy way out. And I want to see for myself if I can do it with success. It's not going to be easy. I am going to have to be very disciplined and aware of what I am doing or not doing. And my friend already sent me her schedule and what she does with the products. It's doable for sure.

 Now I bet you are wondering why on earth I am blogging about it. Well, as of right now very few people read my blog. It's secret for now or very limited to others. And I want to document what I am doing and how I am feeling. I want to be brutally honest with this 30 day try out. Maybe it will help someone else. Who knows. Maybe this is a huge scam and I am out $300. But maybe, it will give me a boost, a push in the right direction. In a year from now I may read this and think...OMG I am SOOOO glad I jumped into this. Or WTF was I thinking wasting all of that money....