Junk between the curves

You know it's been forever and day since I even thought about updating this blog. Lots of things have come and gone in that time. They are in the past so not worth bringing up at this point.

 I am still married..that comes and goes with the love and passion and all of that. Better or worse, right? And the girls are doing great. One teenager and the other heading to the big Kindergarten this fall. Seems like yesterday I was fat and uncomfortable just waiting for her to be in my arms.

 Now I am fat and uncomfortable waiting for myself to hit rock bottom. I was close this morning when I saw I was 2 pounds away from what I never thought I would see or prayed I wouldn't see. So that is my rock bottom. It's the middle of May. No way am I going to be able to make it though the summer without looking decent in shorts. It's not just curves any more. There is extra junk between them. I love my curves, I am always going to have curves but the junk needs to GTFO. At this point I would be happy with a good 10 and then move on from there. But I also know I am the type that needs instant results/satisfaction. I am selfish that way. I also need to be told what to do and when to do it...yes, a bit 50shadesish. So I went looking for something to give me what I wanted. I was up late one night being nosy on FB and came across one of my daughter's friend's mom. Follow that? She had posted some pictures of before and after and people were commenting about her loss and the inches gone and she got a pair of jeans on she hasn't worn in months. What, wait...30 days and you lost enough to toss a old pair of jeans on? This is a joke, scam, gimmick...what is the catch?

 I spent the next few days thinking it all over, just wondering about it and how she had success. I reached out and sent her a message. Which opened up a lot more questions and thoughts and wondering. Last night I was up till midnight, reading all that I could about this product and company. I wanted more info. I wanted to see what others were saying and how they tailored it to their needs. I knew this morning after seeing the scale I had to do it. I had to invest in my health. I took the cash out of my little savings jar, I earned that money, I could use it as I see fit-like I needed to reassure myself it was ok to do it. I called her on my lunch break and asked a few more questions and had my mind put at ease. Here was a normal person in my town who was honestly telling me what tasted ok, what was too expensive but here was a cheaper product she used. I liked that. I liked that she could be honest and not all pushy on what I HAD to use.

 Now I sit and wait. Well not sit. No reason to not have my body in motion and not be practicing good healthy clean eating till I get my box of goodies. ISA on the way. Should be delivered on Tuesday. Wed am I start. I am going to try my best to keep this off of FB. I really don't want to brag or seem like I am taking the easy way out. And I want to see for myself if I can do it with success. It's not going to be easy. I am going to have to be very disciplined and aware of what I am doing or not doing. And my friend already sent me her schedule and what she does with the products. It's doable for sure.

 Now I bet you are wondering why on earth I am blogging about it. Well, as of right now very few people read my blog. It's secret for now or very limited to others. And I want to document what I am doing and how I am feeling. I want to be brutally honest with this 30 day try out. Maybe it will help someone else. Who knows. Maybe this is a huge scam and I am out $300. But maybe, it will give me a boost, a push in the right direction. In a year from now I may read this and think...OMG I am SOOOO glad I jumped into this. Or WTF was I thinking wasting all of that money....